the return of me.

are her lies exposed now?
the woman, who ruined my life?
who ruined the once chance I had? the one chance I had to get what I wanted? what I needed?
She never deserved him, I could've taken better care.

He felt sorry for her,
I was saying it all along.
Their relationship was based on guilt. On his behalf.

She tries to cover it up by using fake names, as if we're so gullible.
stay away from her at all costs - shes trouble.
refrain from speaking about her - it's what she wants.

this is all an act.
shes knows the fan base well.
she knows the reaction shes going to get
she knows that YOU know that shes lying.

yet she still continues.
why? beats me
I've been asking myself that question for quite some time.




be warned, she lurks the boards.

please honey, could you lead the way?

I believe this is war, it's called the battle of the Gemini's.
this is my creative outlet.
yes; regarding the questions you guys sent me,
I do have a myspace; If I gave you my myspace, you will receive my identity.

& I can't let that happen.
the reason being; my friends.
my real friends, will find this blog.

I don't want anybody that I know to see this.
To read these posts.

Why?
Because, in all honesty I'm to embarrassed to express myself in this way, infront of them.
and not just that.
Some of the things I say (in the future).
Well lets just say, if the people I "know" read this.


Yeah, I'm screwed.


plus; he'll also realize that I like him alot.
and for the respect of his wife, he'll probably ignore me for the rest of my life.

my fucking lyric book got stolen.

she put a bullet through his head.










he's moved on, no doubt
she's still obsessed.
they were only together because she forced him.
if only I hadn't taken that step back and let her through,
I will drown in my regret
I let her knock me down and take my place.
It disappointed the others, costed me my career my place in life, the place I liked to stand.
It broke one poor heart, a woman who didn't deserve to have her man taken away.


most importantly;
it ruined my life.
and I still have to live with that.

please come back

this is not the life I wanted
its chaos.
I'm nothing without you, I'm sorry.

How can you listen to her?
How did you listen to her?
Why?

We we're so happy.
So happy together

& Then when she came along, she filled your head with crap.
Crap, bullshit about me.
About what I do.
About my friends.
About who I see.

You were so heartbroken, that last week of our relationship.
You looked shattered, and I felt guilty.
But, I had done nothing wrong.

Then you left me for her.
The bullshit bitch.
It was only after you had advanced further.

You realized.
Her mouth was full of lies.

You backed away, and I'm so glad you did.
In all honesty I really hoped that you'd come back to me.

But now, I see you've moved on

I want you back, I need you so much.
I'm nothing without you.
Please come back.